I know what it was to be chirpy for you,
I know what it was to be expressive for you, to keep on having a rocking conversation and never be tired of it all,
I know what it is to dream for you, to aspire, to desire for things, to feel elegant for once,
I know what promises mean for you,
I know how your heart beats, how your eyes sparkle, your cheeks rise up when you know someone cares and someone would do the things for you no one ever thought of,
I even know what your heartbreak is like, how your tears dry up on your lips, how you resign from life, how you let go of everything,
You’ve been good, been strong, been kind to everyone always no matter what they did to you,…..believed in people and the dreams you saw with a possibility of them getting broken.
I know it’s not your fault for I’m not even upset with you. For I am sorry my life has seen some major breakdowns lately.
I appreciate you still holding out, vouching for me, for here I am trying to make the dreams come true.
For they will be forever. I will be forever. You will be a forever too.
I know it hurts you to address that pain, to think of how today would be different, hence…the silence. I respect the silence for my nights also end up in tears suppressing my voice with a pillow.
I can’t stop worrying about you. I have always wanted to get away from this life. But then, there’s you – there’s this care and worry for you which makes me want to exist more than ever and be with you. I love you.
I want to thank you for actually having stood by the word forever. I mean that too.
I won’t say who you are for you are a part of me. My soul…for that is why I now can exist. You and me…Inseparable.
I just want to say…I understand your silence for these feelings, these emotions are greater than words could ever explain.